I do not like having to make decisions about my life

I came to a conclusion that I need to get a MA in Education. There is no job that is as flexible with me needing summers and breaks off, with parts of them being dedicated to school, but still being able to be close by or take a kid or two with me if I must when at in service days. The only problem with this is that no one who knows me thinks that I would be a good teacher! I see it as a way to allow me to use my English degree and pay of student loans. My husband is worried because my own kids with petty bickering have me weary in minutes of their returns home from school. Tiger said that she can think of me being many things but that teaching high school is not one of them. When I have described the Waldorf education program they agree that it sounds great-- but there are few places who do it!

I had thought that massage would be a great way to earn money and work my hours and I love doing it, but that is not to be.

My husband wants me to pursue writing as a career and do an MFA. The problem with that? As soon as you put deadlines on me, I get writer's block. I cannot do my art unless I am inspired; I found out last semester that a deadline for a painting makes me hate it. Had I not been writing to a very wonderful person who still inspires me, I'd have flunked the class. I don't aspire to be a great writer any more because it's a hobby, not a way of life. I am a bit muddled as to why he'd want me to write when we are tight with money. The income isn't steady in the least.

Anyway, I am back to me drawing board. I thought I'd figured it out.