Curves

I have been putting on weight. I used to do yoga three or four times a week, but now I have three classes on line. My butt is getting big and I have probably gained 20 pounds since August.

I like what I am getting. I had been long and lean, but as I have always felt, beauty moves in curves. I have gone up a cup size with my bra (the breasts are the first to gain and the first to lose weight) and my hips are filling out. Am I wrong to be loving this? When I draw from live models, there is no doubt that the curvaceous ones are the best to put on paper. Light reflects beautifully off them and there is a sense of "abundance" to their bodies that I find undeniably sensual. Men need to be on the leaner side-- I just think that's how men are supposed to look, like they can go out and fight a battle or something. Women? We bear children. We no doubt need the curves. I will probably have no more children, but I still like the curves.

I let my corsets out a bit and am enjoying my body. It's amusing because while In The Act when I am slender, I obsess over the tiniest bulge, worrying that my husband sees it and dislikes it. He doesn't care, but I do and I obsess. We have been to busy for Romance (note my references to sex! LOL) but last night I made the time. He'd not noticed what my body has done in the last few weeks and he noticed last night. He didn't say anything until after I mentioned that it's been a long time since I really got into it and why. He of course noticed it said that the waist to hip ratio that I have now is sexier than when I had a small waist AND a small posterior. I don't know if he likes the curves or the confidence, but he probably enjoys the combination.

Now I am trying to decide if I am going to work in a couple of dance classes into my schedule next semester. Of course I will, but them I will loose the weight right away like I always do, and I don't know if I want to.