Exhaustion

I am so glad school is back in session. My children tried to kill me last week.

Just teasing.

I went to my transformational grammar class and I feel like I am just on the brink of understanding it. My greatest problem is that I can't focus. The only time that I can focus is then the kids are asleep and then it's still limited as they know I am up and want to sit with me. I am so afraid of failing-- I am already making a solid F, but in class today my work was pretty good and my prof saw it and asked if a light is coming on-- I told him that it's flickering on.

I have a personal essay due in advanced composition. It's supposed to be about a personal object and five pages long (double spaced.) I can do that in twenty minutes while making dinner!

The fast is going well. We have been having vegan Greek, Thai, and Mexican food. The kids love it. The difference between last time I tried to do a fast or even go vegan is that I am not focusing on what we are eating but on how it all works together. It's good and I am shocked by how much I eat, yet I am losing a couple of pounds.

Last night I did some drawings. I am getting pretty good-- it's surprising that I do some fast sketches and am getting some distinct gestures and definite characteristics that define the people I am sketching.

I like coming home after a busy school day and the kids wanting me to get my clay out so they can make me things and look at my latest drawings. They show me their work from school and it's a lot of fun. We tell each other what we've learned. . .