Thursday, October 02, 2008

I do not like having to make decisions about my life

I came to a conclusion that I need to get a MA in Education. There is no job that is as flexible with me needing summers and breaks off, with parts of them being dedicated to school, but still being able to be close by or take a kid or two with me if I must when at in service days. The only problem with this is that no one who knows me thinks that I would be a good teacher! I see it as a way to allow me to use my English degree and pay of student loans. My husband is worried because my own kids with petty bickering have me weary in minutes of their returns home from school. Tiger said that she can think of me being many things but that teaching high school is not one of them. When I have described the Waldorf education program they agree that it sounds great-- but there are few places who do it!

I had thought that massage would be a great way to earn money and work my hours and I love doing it, but that is not to be.

My husband wants me to pursue writing as a career and do an MFA. The problem with that? As soon as you put deadlines on me, I get writer's block. I cannot do my art unless I am inspired; I found out last semester that a deadline for a painting makes me hate it. Had I not been writing to a very wonderful person who still inspires me, I'd have flunked the class. I don't aspire to be a great writer any more because it's a hobby, not a way of life. I am a bit muddled as to why he'd want me to write when we are tight with money. The income isn't steady in the least.

Anyway, I am back to me drawing board. I thought I'd figured it out.

4 comments:

Ropi said...

Who else could make decisions about your life if not you?

Tea N. Crumpet said...

It's when the decision is imminent and what I think is an easy solution is scoffed at by everyone who knows me. So many people can't be wrong.

steve said...

Tea, you might want to consider just taking the education courses necessary to get a teaching certificate first. Then get the MA after you've found a teaching job. A lot of schools won't hire somebody with a Master's because they have to pay him or her at a higher rate. If you get the teaching certificate first, you have a better chance of being hired. Once you're hired, then you get the advanced degree.

I suspect you'd be a good teacher.

P.S. The Moody Blues, along with Dvorak, Brahms, and Mendelssohn, made up most of the soundtrack for the time when I fell in love with Kathleen. I'll listen to it once I get back to Indiana and DSL.

Tea N. Crumpet said...

Thank you for the advice, Steve!

That is romantic about you and Kathleen. My husband courted me with TS Eliot and music that I loved from movies like "Moon River" and light opera pieces! The poetry was intense and appealed to my brain, and the music was soothing and comforting since I was a single mom and my nerves were frayed!